Tuesday thoughts (aka word vomit)

I came across this post on Facebook last night that really put some things into perspective for me. Isn't that the way sometimes with those viral posts? I've been feeling pretty tired the last week. Lucy has had a cold for a couple of weeks, and both girls have been waking up at ungodly hours leaving me with very little morning alone time to recharge my batteries. It's been getting darker, and chillier outside. I've been neglecting housework and meal prep and staying up too late reading. I spent the last week burning the candle on both ends. I mentioned last week that I was simultaneously wanting a weekend away with Brian and a weekend alone in my house to clean. But the truth of it is, when I'm away from the girls, I miss them a lot too and I do want to be with them.

The post I read last night was a gentle reminder that it's OK to feel like motherhood is hard sometimes. Because it is. No one would say that it is easy. It's a transition to a level of selflessness that was not required of me before I had kids. With two kids, my time for myself is spread even thinner. When I look at how much our girls have grown though, I try to remember that these busy days of messy floors, board books on repeat and towers out of blocks are fleeting.

At yoga class last night, I yawned through the entire session. Exercise can have this effect on the body anyway, and I've learned to accept it, but when I came home, I felt invigorated, rested, and rejuvenated. The simple act of letting all of my thoughts and worries slip away for 90 minutes has profoundly affected my ability to cope with the busyness of life, and I think I am forever a yoga convert. I missed the class last week and I honestly believe it is one of the reasons why I felt so overwhelmed all week long.

So today I am gently reminding myself to rest if I need to. To take a few minutes to check in with myself and take some deep breaths. I am grateful to be finished The Husband's Secret (more on that next week!) so that I can sleep peacefully tonight & not stay up reading way past my bedtime ;)

I'm definitely experiencing # 2 this morning.

Anyway, that's what is on my mind today. :)